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Ambition
02:15
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I called you up and said:
"I think that my ambition
got the best of me again."
I said yes - despite the indecision,
the best wishes of my friends
But every promise that I’ve made in a good mood I’d break for you.
Every obligation that I undertake I’ll make it up to you.
Cause i’ve got dreams
but time don't want me to
A message left unread
I think I need to take a week
to learn to breathe again
forget it
it seems that I'm too selfish
or too far stuck inside my head
But every night I spend alone inside my room I’d invite you.
and even if I’m feeling down about myself I’ll wait around for you.
because I’m stressed out but I know that you are too
we’ve both got dreams that time don’t want us to
ambition’s got the best of me and you.
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Doubts
03:55
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My creative license
my artistic indecicisiveness
stifles me
I'm out on the street
you flick your cigarette butt into the gutter
staring at each other
we waiting for the same thing
without a word worth saying.
and all of my doubt lives
within this indecision
plenty of drive and but a pittance of the discipline
I digress, I guess I just wasn’t cut out for this
and you say that you can’t say if anyone is.
So I've decided that:
I don’t want to die hanging on to my doubts
I don’t wanna fight it when the fire goes out
I'm haunted by the quiet
of potential unrequited
and the disappointment
in my own eyes
I don't want to die.
I might need some time, might need your help
but I don’t want to die with my doubts
Been waking every day
with blank slate staring straight back at me
Let me stay
all the things I should be doing
live and die inside excuses
like "tomorrows a brand new day"
and nothing works the same
as it did back then
been pulling at the ends of
every person I’ve pretended to be
I think I like being me
I don't know what that means.
but now these songs pull me along with urgency
And they're telling me:
I don’t want to die hanging on to my doubts
I don’t wanna fight it when the fire goes out
I'm haunted by the quiet
of potential unrequited
and the disappointment
in my own eyes
I don't want to die.
And I might need some time, might need your help
You know I've had my doubts
and all these years of fighting fears
I'll get up off the ground, I'll find it in myself.
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Honeymoon Phase
03:44
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So you starting sleeping over
Over and over again
and I’d still be wanting more of it the moment that you left
we traded pictures of our pets
you told me how your parents met
and we talked about our high schools and who we thought we were back then
it’s getting late, our whispers fade
but even fast asleep in silence we could still communicate
I’m sure that there’s a way
and in the middle of the night, I woke up
I could not hold you tight enough
I wondered if one day I ever would
I close my eyes, fall asleep
heart warm from your body heat
wondering how it ever got this
ever got this good
and the more i get to know you
the closer and closer we get
I’d like to peel back all those layers until there’s nothing really left
we’ll trade secret messages
that no one else will get
you’re as crazy as a catfish, swimming circles 'round my head
it’s getting late our whispers fade
but even fast asleep in silence we could still communicate
ain’t that great?
and in the middle of the night, I woke up
I could not hold you tight enough
I wondered if one day I ever would
I close my eyes, fall asleep
heart warm from your body heat
wondering how it ever got this
ever got this good
It's never been this good.
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4. |
Passenger's Side
04:09
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I know you’re thinking
That we were better off back then
How quick desire
Ends then begins again.
And I feel the same way
Truth is it never goes away
How poorly good things
Compare to the good old days.
You’re homesick for yesterday
Maybe this is it, and what we had was all we get
I don’t believe it, let’s leave tonight
I want to drive 'til the streets end with you
In the passengers side
Remember dreaming
Before our days were means to ends?
How quick our routines
Fall from future to the past tense.
And this town is changing
But not the way we thought it would
Are we complacent
Or is it our neighbourhood?
Though we do what good neighbours should
Maybe this is it, and what we had was all we get
I don’t believe it, let’s leave tonight
I want to drive 'til the streets end with you
In the passengers side
Nothing good was ever good enough
I’ll die trying to find some perfect love
And maybe its far too late to see, but you were the one for me
so now I’m leaving town, with an open seat and the windows down
So climb in now,
Climb in.
Maybe this is it
and this right here is all we get
come on believe in me
lets leave tonight
We could drive 'til the streets end
Maybe this is it, and what we had was all we get
I don’t believe it, let’s leave tonight
I want to drive 'til the streets end with you
In the passengers side
With you in the passenger's side.
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Foundational
03:11
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The sun hits the floor
it’s bare but it’s warm
tracing two years of footsteps
back to the door
and I close it
I crack a smile cause I’ll never be locked out again
My footsteps remember
like it was a test
every crack in the concrete
and the placement of step
to avoid them
I make into your car and I fall apart
I didn’t think I cared until it all came far too soon
my god it's true - I found a foundation in you
now future seems so scary, sanctuary stands removed
My old room - lay bare for someone new
and the highway seems different
this time around
with no weekend plans
or a returning route
to adhere to
seems every sign on the shoulder stares me down
I try to reflect
rationalize
how so much that I love
I am leaving behind
to the past now
Driving forward but it doesn’t feel that way.
I didn’t think I cared until it all came far too soon
my god it's true - I found a foundation in you
now future seems so scary, sanctuary stands removed
My old room - lay bare for someone new
I miss you.
the sun hits the floor
it’s bare but it’s warm
a lifetime in boxes
stacked at the door
of a new house
I crack a smile like I'm falling in love again.
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